Making an effort

Or is it putting in effort? Who knows.

Anyways, hello again, it's been a long time. Since not much else in life is going on I this Sunday decide to make an update to my blog. Not a visual one of course, since I am no good at those things, but a personal one. I will try to use a blog as it is intended. As an online journal.

I like to think that I have some interesting thoughts or if nothing else always something to say, be it good or bad.

What brought this up was when I woke up today and realized that I had no reason to get up at all. No work, and nothing I have to do. Feeling drowsy, beat down, and generally in no-good mood, I did get up, and have now watched nearly 4 hours of consecutive television drama.

I have now worked where I work since graduation. It is a good job, with plenty of benefits and perks, but it is not something I see myself doing for the rest of my life. Every day it feels like I repeat the same thing, and although you don't want to tell anyone, it does tear you down to get complaints and such every day. Mostly because you feel like they could be prevented. Yes, there are certain people who make problems where they are none, and those there is nothing to do about.

I have decided as a motivation to myself for the upcoming time to to list some of the most common questions, problems, and solutions that I hear on a day by day basis. Somewhere along the lines, this might for some reason be helpful to someone but most likely not.

SO, update numero uno will be up soon. Be prepared, be very prepared....


Or not, what do I know. Hang in there fellow people of the planet Tellus.

So life rant.

Time to loosen up the joints and get back to writing. November is approaching faster than ever and my typing is going to crap,,, Spelling, speed and everything there is. Basically, I feel incomplete. And I need to rant.

I am not old. I am not at risk of reaching a point in life where it is too late to change totally. But, after a few hours alone in my room I am having an existential crisis. Here's the deal right now. The show-down. The whole picture.

I am approaching 20. That's not necessarily old. But in five years I'll be 25 and five years after that 30. Holy crap, by then it is too late. I have to have my life together by then. Being raised by divorced parents I need to have a family, stability and yes, I need children by then. I also don't want to rush such a thing with someone I don't know.

So: I need to know the person for like 6 months before you can say that you are a couple. Then the next step is cohabitation. That is at LEAST one whole year of dating. After that comes engagement, and I think you should live together for at least a year before you go into that just to be sure of what you are getting into. After that step is definitely children. God darn that topic. You can be as torn as you want about it right now, but you sure son't want to be the old mom later on, so after engagement I say 6 months to a year before you could be expecting. Then when the child is a toddler, maybe 6 years old, marriage. That is my plan. It gives you time to start a career and get a steady job before anything else. And let's be honest, you don't want to be fat or ugly in wedding photos. So you should definitely be like 30 when that happens.

Counting backwards, that means;

29; marriage
23; child
22; engagement
21; cohabitation
20; dating
19; introduction

That's it. That is all. I fully understand how unrealistic it is that things follow this meticulous plan, but come on! Can't things just go the way you plan for once? Why shouldn't they?

It scares me, I will willingly say so. That means I should be meeting the person I want to spend the rest of my life with, right now. Holy cow... I do have a boyfriend, but I am nearly 100 percent sure it is frowned upon to say stuff such as "So hey, before I turn 24 I want a baby. And just so you know, I expect a proposal before then! Yea. So no. Probably going to die alone. Rant over for now.

By Yours Truly,
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Dealing with structure (when used to non-structure),,,

I am referring to life. Life organization, planning, having a goal, dreams, routines, customs, rules, ete. I like to think my life is ordinary. I wake up, go to work, go home, eat, watch TV, move to the computer, move to the bed, and read, then sleep, and then wash, rinse and repeat. However this has led to me having some issues with control. I like having things in order. I like time schedules, and clocks and notes and lists and other pseudo-psychotic ticks. You want to know what happens when things change that I can't affect? Boom.

I am lost, I help helpless, and weak, and oh God, are those paper clippings on your desk? A tidy workspace is a haven for productivity. *cleanliness is next to Godliness*.

Of course I am kidding. I suck at structure. Someone actually has to hold me to a routine at work for me to do it. Double standards such as making independent decisions versus "you-better-check-with-someone", are tearing me apart.

And yesterday we introduced a completely new system. Great. I'm not going to panic. Sigh.

HOW CAN YOU CAUSE SUCH DISARRAYMENT AND THEN LOOK THE OTHER WAY?!

WHY WON'T YOU TAKE SUGGESTIONS?!

*heavy breathing*

Okay. I'm fine. But responsibility on the workplace is important. I'm just not up there enough yet to be able to call someone out on it. I was clean out insulted today, because they didn't think I had the knowledge to be on our new systems, because I've only worked there for about 5 months, which was completely uncalled for, just because management thought I'd pick it up faster than someone who has been wokring on the same basics and resisted change for years on end. Ha to you, but I also hope you get over it soon.

As usual, I am more two-sided to a story than a 4 year old.

Well, no more talk about work tonight. I'm working on my plot for NaNo this year, so better get back to that. I'll probably make an update on it on Friday!

By Yours Truly,
ETBlogsHome 2013-10-02

Using and abusing social media...

is generally a hot topic. Based on your generation, location, and most of all your personality you'll stand by a specific boundary where using turns into abusing. Of course this goes for most any thing. Language into cursing, comedies into offensive material, and should children be allowed to play with toys with loose plastic eyes or not?

As humans I believe we are bound to conflicts, confrontation, and collectivism. We identify a "problem", create the "problem" and then we take a stand against or for it, often divided into two sides relying on the counter arguments or the other side.

Passivity and "agressivity" have become driving forces in debates. You have a problem? Well, we have a problem with you having a problem!

That's the way it's always been, and look how well that's worked out!

We need change, development is the only way forward!

Rome wasn't built in a day!

An apple a day keeps the doctor away! (Okay, fair enough, I added this one our of pure sarcasm/irony who knows what is what anyways, none of you people reading it certainly.(And you should always have an even number of arguments. I'm a sucker for even numbers))

*Ahem*... Right, back to the point. Social media is expanding, and you can't find a respectable company that doesn't have a Facebook page. Television? Sure, there are advertisements on there, you've probably come across one or two. Amish? Maybe not so much social media.

My generation (in general) is constantly connected. Internet to your phone, Facebook, Instagram, Snapchat, Kik, Tumblr, Stumbleupon, etc etc etc. I spend countless hours each day either in front of the computer or my phone! Break at work? Of course I'll bring my phone to play Candy Crush Saga for 10 min. Lunch? I'll check Instagram, then Tumblr, then Facebook, then over again.

So am I a user or an abuser? I would say that if I did not have a semi-respectable job to go to each day, I'd be an abuser. Now my main focus in life is not technology (even though I technically spend 7 hours a day at work on les interwebs too). It's purely for recreational use. But then again, that's what all the druggies call it, isn't it?

Well, this has been a lot of fun, if you feel like sharing your thoughts on social media and our use of it feel free. There is no toll charge on the comments box!

By yours truly, ETBlogsHome 2013-08-04

I'm constantly asking myself....

How my life situation reflects on my surroundings.

We all have times when we feel a need to be in control. (Or at least I do quite often). Everyone has their way of dealing with stress. Some common things that people do to relieve this is;

- Eat

- Cry

- Exercise

- Eat

- Talk

- Publicly humiliate the item or person that is the source of the stress

- Eat

I've developed a bit of a tweaked way of ... "dealing".

It's not compulsive, as much as it is needed! So don't you dare judge me, you, ....butt-scratcher! (warning nsfw)

I organize my bookshelf. A lot. I'm not talking like okay, I feel stressed, tear down all books, put them back up. We are talking majorly changing the appearance and organization. It makes me feel.. in control.

Here's what I'm going to do! Below are some of today's and yesterday's organizations. I feel as if when I confess this to no one in particular, I'll be able to at least stop a little. 

Yours truly,
ETBlogsHome 2013-07-14